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Name: abigail
Country: United States
State: Oklahoma
Birthday: 7/15/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: my friends and my family! singing, reading, soocer, having really good conversations with people that i'll remember, dancing to music (when i'm completely alone).
Expertise: how am i supposed to answer this question? i think i'm probably pretty good at running into things with my car, and well let's see - i'm really really good at saying the wrong things at the wrong time....oh and ....peeing in my pants while i run. i'm pretty good at that too.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
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AIM:  absofsteel0004
Member Since:
11/5/2004
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| I can't believe it's already the end of the semester! Time goes go by so fast and it feels like this last clinical rotation went by the fastest of them all! There's always a danger at the end of the year of getting caught up in the business and the fun...and i definitely have done that. i was reading in this study the other day on the life of Jesus about the story of Him walking on the road to Emmaus with those two men. The author of the study was talking about how often we get discouraged and downcast and we don't even recognize the fact that Jesus is walking right next to us. When we look back on it we can see His presence but not at that time. I feel like that's been my life for a while now. I just don't recognize Him anymore. I know He's here...I just don't see Him until I look back. I've been committed to spending 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes at night just praying...and I'm discovering how much my prayer life has suffered in the business. Because of this, I've decided to make this summer a time when more than anything, I am committed to prayer. When I go to Costa Rica or when I'm at home with my family...I just want to be committing everything I do to Jesus...and have Him take it. I think that doing that will help me in so many ways. One more year! I'm excited to see what happens next... | | |
| It's crazy how fast this last part of the semester has gone! Only three more weeks and I'll be done with my junior year of college. It feels so surreal. These past two weeks have been a time of humility for me. For the past few years, I have viewed myself very proudly. I was proud of my relationships with my friends, family and boyfriend, as well as my relationship with God, I was proud of my accomplishments in school and about where I thought I was going to go with my life. So many things - that all seem to be stripped in some way or another. For the past few weeks God has brought to the forefront all of my failures. And there are MANY. Countless numbers in fact. Every time another failure is pointed out, Satan has twisted it to make me more and more discouraged. As I've been reflecting and praying when I wake up in the morning and at night, all I can reflect on is how I've failed my Savior. This past week, something struck me. The grace of God is all-encompassing. Even as I reflect on that truth now, I still don't understand the depths of it. I do know that my identity is found in the love of my Father and the sacrifice of my Jesus, and that I hold on to that in the time of humility. I'm thankful for this time, but more than that I'm thankful for the grace of my Father. | | |
| If I could characterize my relationship with God in two words right now....I think those words would be slow moving. I remember a time in my life where what was going on in my relationship with God and how I felt about it and what I was learning would change so quickly. I think I would rather have it the way it is now. To me, if things move slowly they feel more real, or they're more lasting. My committment to spend 10 minutes in the morning and at night reflecting and praying about the power of God in my life has been shaky. I find that I kind of like driving an hour to clinicals because it gives me time to think and pray :) What I have discovered, is that when I look, more and more prayers and desires of my heart seem to be answered by my Father. This weekend I saw one of the prayers that I've had for a very long time answered and it's incredible to me. It took a long time for me to see this answer of my prayer, but God is faithful. What an incredible Father I have. | | |
| So what does it mean to live a godly life? I have been struggling with this question. I know there are certain things that are outlined in Scripture for us to do, but how much of it is our own perseverance and how much of it is the grace of God in our lives? There are times in my life where I feel as though I've been failing misesrably at living with a passion for Jesus. But where does that passion come from? How do I rediscover it? And do I rediscover it or do I allow God to bring me to it and just be open for what and when He might show me. All these questions and what I feel to be no answers. There are days when I am discouraged, but the promises remain: God will not stop until He has completed the good work He began in me; Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever; all things pass away but these three remain - faith, hope and love. If my life is characterized by these three things, God will be faithful. My commitment for the last part of the semester has been to spend 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes at night reflecting on the power and works of God in my life and all around me. Since making that commitment, it has been hard to keep it. I am renewed now as I seek to rediscover what it means to be a passionate follower of Christ. Until I stop to see His work in my life, I believe the passion will remain a mystery. Starting tomorrow morning, I will make this a commitment. | | |
| My heart is in New Orleans. I try to to pray for the people, but the only prayer I can think of is claiming that God is sovereign. What can I, in Cedarville Ohio, do to help those who have lost so much?
"Naked I came from my mother's womb, and naked I will return. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
MAY THE NAME OF THE LORD BE PRAISED." Job 1:21 | | |
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